his heart is locked up and he won't give anyone the key.
...calling all heart surgeons...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
he said, she said
he said: I'm sorry for not getting back to you earlier yesterday, I hope you had fun at your party though. Can I ask you another favor? We need to move our date today to after my test Monday. I need to study...
i said: Yeah whatever.
he said: Okay, I know I'm being really flakey. I know I would be annoyed if it was happening to me. I'll try to be better about it in the future.
i said: I'd really appreciate that. Never seeing you sucks, and all my friends are telling me that I look unhappy. I really want to see/talk to you more.
he said: Alright. Well this is my first test and I majorly need to study. To give you an idea I'm not going to the gym or watching my fave show tonight, lol.
i said: I know school is more important than me - trust me I get that bit. But seeing you once a week or less is seriously lame.
he said: Well let me just knock out this test and then we can talk about it.
i said: Good luck with this test then.
last night two ex-boyfriends asked me to see them; one wanted sex, one wanted a kiss. my best friend told me that he's always there for me. my high school sweetheart was my valentine, and a sweet young chef I just met a few weeks ago spent his breaks in a long day at a valentines' hotspot txting me and making me laugh.
he only txtd me once, replying to a message in which i'd asked if he was coming to my friends' party with me.
he was the only one that i thought about all night.
i said: Yeah whatever.
he said: Okay, I know I'm being really flakey. I know I would be annoyed if it was happening to me. I'll try to be better about it in the future.
i said: I'd really appreciate that. Never seeing you sucks, and all my friends are telling me that I look unhappy. I really want to see/talk to you more.
he said: Alright. Well this is my first test and I majorly need to study. To give you an idea I'm not going to the gym or watching my fave show tonight, lol.
i said: I know school is more important than me - trust me I get that bit. But seeing you once a week or less is seriously lame.
he said: Well let me just knock out this test and then we can talk about it.
i said: Good luck with this test then.
last night two ex-boyfriends asked me to see them; one wanted sex, one wanted a kiss. my best friend told me that he's always there for me. my high school sweetheart was my valentine, and a sweet young chef I just met a few weeks ago spent his breaks in a long day at a valentines' hotspot txting me and making me laugh.
he only txtd me once, replying to a message in which i'd asked if he was coming to my friends' party with me.
he was the only one that i thought about all night.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
The domino effect
One little movement knocks over one little block and suddenly the ripples spread outward, setting off a chain reaction that completely changes your surroundings.
People get hurt; lives change, and the flow eddies on, but the deeps have been stirred and the rocky river track will never be the same, even as the surface babbles on unchanging.
Do people truly change? Some days I have changed, the others I remain the same, studying harder, then unable to concentrate, cooking healthily and then buying fast food.
Change, both a beautiful and a terrible word, for as humans we cling to the familiar and what we know and love. And yet, there is this strange saving flexibility within our hearts that causes us to follow Change and the lures he leaves behind him as he creeps and stalks and clashes with Life.
Dominos knock over their mates, one by one in a swift, smooth motion, change after change unfolding in a beautiful, terrible pattern - the future.
People get hurt; lives change, and the flow eddies on, but the deeps have been stirred and the rocky river track will never be the same, even as the surface babbles on unchanging.
Do people truly change? Some days I have changed, the others I remain the same, studying harder, then unable to concentrate, cooking healthily and then buying fast food.
Change, both a beautiful and a terrible word, for as humans we cling to the familiar and what we know and love. And yet, there is this strange saving flexibility within our hearts that causes us to follow Change and the lures he leaves behind him as he creeps and stalks and clashes with Life.
Dominos knock over their mates, one by one in a swift, smooth motion, change after change unfolding in a beautiful, terrible pattern - the future.
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